heidi

happy, or sad?

2011-07-06T05:56:00.000-07:00

Baby & i .

i love this picture alot. we both look so happy inside. but, we can never judge a picture by just looking at it. behind every picture, there are alot of stories behind. happy ones, sad ones.. nobody knows. like this picture, it's just a picture. but am i happy? do you guys think i am? :) to be frank, my unhappiness is more than happiness. yes i am happy that i could meet him, since we're having a distance r/s. our last meeting was dec 29. after so long, can only meet him. the last time we met, relationship between me and him are just close friends. this time, we meet as couples. before going to singapore, i was really excited, we've been together for almost half year. quite sometimes ei? i won't feel nervous somehow.. but just really excited. i get so so happy when i see him.. that day was cool.. but when it comes to a little bit late at night, i somehow felt that.. something's not right, a sudden felt from him, treating me a little cold.. i know i'm the kind of girl who thinks so much. and yeah, so much negative thoughts in me. but, if he never give me this feeling, i wouldn't have this kinda thoughts right? times when i was in singapore, he stayed with me, accompanied me through the night. the first night, he was so nice, so caring, sweet and yeahs, we hugged each other to sleep. the next day.. somehow, just felt that, sigh i don't know.. times when i was in singapore, and before i went, it's so different. he was so effing sweet in those previous msgs before we meet, but after we met, his actions are just so different from the usual msgs. why? when i questioned him, he just said nothing happened, and it's im the one that thinks alot. but i don't think he treats his ex this way..? i think they're very sweet before.. sigh, speaking about his ex, i really break down alot. i've got no confidence in myself at all. do you know, how pretty his ex is? close to perfect ei? what about me? i'm nothing.. no looks, fat. and all, people says appearance aren't everything, he said he doesn't mind. but which guy wouldn't right? which guy don't want their own gf to be pretty right? ofcourse they wanna bring a pretty girl out and show off to everyone and let the whole world knows, that he has a pretty girlfriend. sigh.. well cut that crap and back to the topic, i never been happy after i came back from singapore. everything just seems to be so different compared to before. the day i left from his side, was my most regretful day. i shouldn't have listen to him, and just go in the departure hall.. i should've stay and accompany him till the very last call for boarding. what am i thinking back then? why would i listen to him? the moment when he turn and walk away.. do you know how much it hurts to watch someone you love walking away slowly from you..? i just couldn't bear, so i just turn away and go in.. the moment when i stepped into the departure hall, i begin to miss him so much, and that feeling kills me so much! and when i'm inside the airplane, i was crying so badly for the entire journey. the feelings HURT SO BAD, i could even die! i never been happy since the day i'm back. sigh.. i viber-ed him yesterday night, the feeling was so different. he said it's been quite so long tht he haven't call me. then i said yeah, don't he feel abit weird? he answered, abit. but i said, it's not just abit.. it was just a short conversation. after we hung up the phone, he texted me, he said he knows that i'm unhappy and he apologized. i began to cry after i read that msg.. then i start shooting everything out, i tell him whatever i wanna say and tell him how am i feeling, and what had happened to us.. he said nothing, and he will never hide anything from me.. sigh.. after that, all his msgs and everything gone back normal.. but still, feeling weird somehow.. )'= i really miss him so much.. miss laying next to him.. watching him from beside, laying on his chest.. hugg him, kiss him, hold his hands.. )'x by just thinking back, what have we done, where we went to before.. it just hurt so bad.. )=

lifeless much? =/

2010-09-14T22:25:00.000-07:00

oh well, i quitted alot of things that i do everyday! i deactivated my facebook :/ quitted msn? & also maple.. kinda sad.. but i really don't know what i do that for? maybe there's too much things on my mind, then i really need to calm myself down, so quit everything all in once at the mo.. i might be back? when i'm feeling better.. :) so lifeless of me.. TV is not my thang.. :/ sleep couldn't be sleeping forever also what.. sms, will but.. noone to sms with? my phone's dead anyways.. xi guan jiu hao ba? but today.. it's not really dead.. :)) i'm happy to see his name pop out of my phone screen.. kinda surprised me? cause i thought he wouldn't contact me in anyway anymore :/ oh yeah! i never quit skype! LOL~! anyone who knows me can add me in skype! ^^ can always chat there or call me through skype if i never afk :D x3heidi(add!) no mic also nvm, can chat inside de =)) just that you needa download skype nia.. :D this is how my life is at the moment.. :/ how to contact me? hmmm.. through my blog chatbox? and sms or call me? or skype :D

2010-09-14T19:58:00.001-07:00

i miss you.. T___T so dam much.. hurts so bad too T__T

Anti-Realistic.Blogspot.Com

2010-09-06T01:21:00.000-07:00

why is my title my blog's add? because i really anti-reality.. this will be one short post, cause for one sentence, it represents everything i wanna say in my heart and things that i'm thinking in my mind.. 每个人是现实的.. so.. what i'm gonna say is.. Face The Reality..

6thSept

2010-09-05T10:23:00.000-07:00

ahem, he's CH.. :D look what is he doing? he told me that sponge he's using to "act cleaning the floor" is the sponge that used to put flowers de.. Lol.. then i ask him where did he put the flowers after that, he said he threw it away.. -___- and yes.. that was my expression when he told me that.. LOL

anyways, why is he doing all those cleaning stuffs ey? haha, well, he told me he's doing all these for the charity at the old folks home.. and yeahs, he sweep the floor till kena MJ possessed LOL.. pose with that broom sumore.. f3

look so hardworking in this pic, but is he really that hardworking? :P horhorhor, or acting only ohh? :P

Sharon & I .. we went panaga swimm on like erm, friday.. (: after that we went yumcha.. :D

some maple ss? :D i love my cs outfit, so dam round and cute ey! :D

Somehow, the guy on my left side de, reminds me of :)

Dar<3 hahaha!

This picture is very LOL!

Jeff & i ..

Ming =)

=D !

HorHor! who's this chubby? :P cute hor? :D he's CH! :P

Some Old & New Pics (:

2010-08-29T21:45:00.001-07:00

Edmund, me and Ming . :) edmund went back to canada already ): sad, kinda miss him though, eventhough we don't hang out much, but it's so nice to meet him.. know him through jeff :) anyways, it's really nice to have him as a friend, he's dam hilarious, super blur guy :P

Nuer & i, we went panaga swim that day, along with michelle, haha! we're supposed to go jogging but we went swimming instead due to the bad weather :)

i stuff Pulut in the luggage, lol =x i want him ta sleep but he's so naughty keep wanna come out -.-

aww his innocent looking face ):

Pulut: Jiee, please let me out T_T

He's scolding me that time lol f3

Ke ai & pulut :D x3

Adrian & Ryan , went pool that time, after that we went for a movie, hehehe! new moon or eclipse i forgot! whatever! :D

Jon, Me & Kor :D after yumcha, then went my place hang out awhile. (:

Wenkwang! x3 he's my love love love ! so cute ! but now he grow up le , quite sometimes since i last saw him D:

Long ago de pic, May & i (: was at fred's house :D during CNY

Edmund & I :D

I love this picture so much, it was taken at Qlap GwaHo, Mann Darling, Auntiepig & I :D love them both to the max! ^^

Hehe! Kor & I :D

sigh

2010-08-19T21:53:00.000-07:00

i don't know what to do anymore..

sorry..

Ling x3

2010-08-19T18:23:00.000-07:00

i don't understand.. i don't know why.. what happened? was it because of me? or others? why things turns up this way..? this is so not what i wanted.. never expect things would turn out this way.. i'm sorry dar if it was me.. sorry for not accompanying so much like before.. i didn't mean to do it, just that i'm quite busy at works these days, then hardly sms you.. but today, i can't concentrate on my work well, cause i don't know what happened to us, i keep wonder what have i done, keep thinking if its because u felt left out.. we used to sms alot, chat alot, and do everything together, but your sms somehow it hurts me to see type like that.. you told me that you won't tell anyone anything anymore.. and solve your problems all on your own, why? you made me felt like as if i betrayed you or i'm not your close friends anymore.. we've been through so much things, all the joys and laughters.. do they still exists? i feeling so down, got no mood to work.. i kept on worrying, and kept waiting for your reply.. we were once so closed then now i felt like we're drifting apart, i don't want it this way.. i never felt this way over overseas friends like this before.. you're the first one, and the way we treat each other and chat.. i hope we'll get back to the same before.. or was it because of the comments i commented on that picture? sorry for everything.. T__T

Some pictures to make the blog look alive? :O

2010-08-17T03:09:00.000-07:00

Webcaming With Rui :D

Ming, his team get Champion that night, then went Zuki for tea :D

Mann, driving w/o license! horhor! f3*

During dumpling festival :D

* lazy post more , at least few :P better than nothing :P *

I LOST MY RM200! HOW COULD IT BE?

2010-08-17T02:51:00.001-07:00

Okay first of all , i gotta say, IT'S BEEN SOMETIMES SINCE I'VE UPDATED MY BLOG! due to my LAZYNESS! please forgive me, hahaha! okay! Cut That Crap! oh well! I FOCKING LOST MY RM200 LAH! i don't know where it goes! i can't remember man! did i actually drop it?! cause i remember i already put it inside the wallet, then now it's gone?! It's not like they have legs right?! Hey Look! I know it's not a BIG AMOUNT of money(ka-ching! $_$) BUT I'M BROKE LAH, SO IT'S STILL IMPORTANT LAH! SUPPOSE TO book ticket today de, flight to KL next year April! Then now what!? T__T God, Please leh~ Don't play me can, give me back the RM200 note T_T sniffings* sobbings* wipes tears!* okay i'm being so dramatic! LOL! but aiyo! i really really need it lahs, need to pay for my air ticket de okay! ): Walao.. )= Drop at Mall? MCD? Where are you my RM200!? come back to mummy(me) please.. I'm Right here Waiting For You~ And i'm so tired today lah! went bandar after jogging yesterday, not like straight away go lah, after bathing and everything.. So damn tired today loh, I EVEN OVERSLEPT LAH DURING NOON DE LUNCH BREAK! lucky i never kena shoot! LOL! if not comfirm die till i don't know how to scream for help! LOL~! nola joking.. wont be so serious lahs, at most kena say abit nia, lol~! The time now... 6.00PM le! 6.30PM going swim in Panaga.. SO TIRED! -__- My member card expired somemore.. need to re-new it.. aiya i think they will do it for me.. if i gonna walk here and there just to re-new it, then forget it.. go home sleep sua.. x_x" okay lah, don't know what to say anymore, and i already try my best to update my blog, this is all i can write for today.. HEHEHEHEHE! wait for my next post which i don't know when! :P depends on mood de! :D wahahah !

i miss you.. ='/

2010-07-07T09:27:00.000-07:00

I am thinking of you.. :( in my sleepless solitude tonight.. if it's wrong to love you, then my heart just won't let me right.. :'( cause i drowned in you, and i won't pull through. without you by my side, i give my all to have just one more night with you.. i'd risk my life to feel your body next to mine. cause i can't go on.. living in the memory of our song, i give my all for your love tonight.. baby can you feel me? imagining i'm looking in your eyes. i can see you clearly.. vividly emblazoned in my mind~ and yet you so far.. like a distant star i'm wishing on tonight..

1st of July 2010 .

2010-06-30T21:08:00.000-07:00

:'( .. i don't know what to say .. but i know i'm really sad , i'm breaking down .. i need someone , but noone i could turn to .. i don't know who to find , early morning reach office , i feel so empty , mind so blank , couldn't think of anything else .. i don't know what's on my mind . i don't know what i should do , people may think that i'm a joke . but they don't know how i'm feeling inside .. they can say or think anything they like , i don't care , you can say i'm stupid , but i'm just that stubborn .. i couldn't help myself . but just to cry .. i really don't need any sorry from you .. don't have to feel guilty either .. cause all i asked for now , is you to be happy .. i don't want to see you so down , cause it hurts me too .. you're not stupid .. neither a *ker . so stop thinking that you are one . don't say you're not worth , cause too me , you're more worth than anything else . you promised me that you will stay happy always , i hope you won't break it .. :') good luck in everything you do , cause i'll be supporting you always ^^

Dar, Sorry that i kept you worried yesterday when i never reply your sms . and thanks pinpin too . and also Sorju .. =) <3

Lame Update x_x

2010-05-18T09:29:00.000-07:00

;O~! wooo, so long never blog already, always wanna blog but like lazy, and sometimes, just don't know what to blog about. my life like so wu liao .__. and yehs.. talking about my life, it's been pretty a mess lately, just feel so ~__~ so many things came up lahs, hais, work, family, and alot of things to think about.. i just want a simple life lohs.. really don't wanna think so much.. but i just couldn't control my mind.. )= i kinda feel lifeless also lehs, everyday work work work, but what to do, i need money! lmaos.. not because of MONEY i also won't WORK LAH! duhs who don't work for money sia, LOL~! wanna save moneyyy~ then end of the year go sg! HEHEHE! can't wait to go man! D; to meet up my friends and yeahs, go UNIVERSAL STUDIO! :B! ehhhs, late already, lol, needa go sleep now .___. i know i blog half way, see when i continue again, lolol~ lame post, hehehehe! when i got the feel, i continuee, or maybe next post wil be next story lahs, my mind now really blank~! lalalas~ =D

The Feelings That You Used To Have.

2010-05-08T09:37:00.000-07:00

TCC.. i'm sorry.. sighh..

feelings that you used to have.. i never know until grace told me.. i will type it out..

Her boyfriend has got so much dough, So much ice his neck and wrist froze. Is he faithful to her? Hell no.. But she chose to be with him, Tell me what's the reason that you hold on, When you know that dude has a whole wall of 'em just like you? And girl you're just way too fine, Gotta be treated as one of a kind. Girl use your mind, Don't be just another dime, because.. I can't take, Seeing you with him.. Cause I know exactly what you'll be, In his gallery. Just not fair, And it's tearing me apart. You're just another priceless work of art, In his gallery. She's so confused, She knows she deserves more, Someone who will love and adore. She really doesn't know what to do, Girl it's just a matter of time. Before he finds another more fine. After he's done dulling your shine, You're out the door and he's through with you. You're a masterpiece, I know that he Can't appreciate your beauty. Don't let him cheapen you. He don't see you like i do, Beautiful not just for show time that someone let you know.

2010-02-09T01:44:00.000-08:00

it's been sucha long time, like 213445234123123 years, since i've update my blog. due to my lazyness! and no time-ness! haha! actually, more on my lazyness x) well, nothing much happened in life lahs, just been quite stress, recently. feeling so frust. so many things on my mind lahs, hope to get rid of those things ei. .__.ll FML! lols. anyways, i played back my so called lifeless game "Maple". roflmaos. my friend's ask me play back, actually, lazy and don't feel like it de, but, yeahs, since i got nothing much to in my life also, just play back lors. haha! used back my old character though, memories everywhere when i use back the old character. oh well, memories are histories =) wasted quite alot of money on this game also .__. i know right, it's really #@%$%#@$%# but aiya nvm, happy then can already. CNY coming like real soon, and tht's on NEXT WEEK! HOLY MAMA! and i'm heading back to ipoh, visit my grandma on friday! omg can't wait ^^ hehe! then 14th wah, valentine leh, siao so lonely )=! i hate it. hais.. nvm.. i'm actually thinking, should i meet my friends? in KL, they ask me go find them when i'm in KL weh, hais.. i feel abit kan cheong also if meet them arhs~! ahaha! JING BAO! I MISS U AND WANT TO SEE BUT I SHY WTF! HAHA! how i met them? hmm, oh well, they're the members of KL Dragons. haha. how i know them ah? is when they come brunei for tourney. then met them lorhs, went yumcha also, with jingbao and li wei. but kenneth wasn't able to join us cause he's having the leg treatment thingy that time, but talked for quite sometimes on the court. ahh ~ ! i want go clubbin sia ! D;! kenneth say he'll bring mi go clubbin when i'm in KL~ but i alone weh, don't dare.. loools~ oh lalas~ i update again next time, mind suddenly went blank~!

pictures taken that day. (my birthday!)

2010-01-18T05:01:00.000-08:00

they trying to surprise me but i know it already, then they ask me pretend that i don't know anything. deng. haha!

really kena ah bao say correct lorhs, andy's the one who holds the cake. haha!

Blueberry Cheesecake! x3 Loves!

Laopo x3

Huiyii & Baobei ann. x3

Bao(nuer) & Ah boo ;D lovey dovey!

Baobeii & Darren, Laopo & Fook

Andy & Yang Playing boxing lol!

the guys!

Fook & Andy.

Zai

Karen & My Baby! ^_^

My Doll Laopo ;D

Cousins!

pretending to be ah sam! haha!

Baobei x3

cute enough? ;D

my loves!

this was at my place, already abit high high dei that time

vainnnnnn~

x3

attitude enough?

Baobei & Karen.

Hui yii & Laopo

Huiyii

Karen

nuer and mi ^__^ x3

it's just us x3

17th of jan - 18th of jan

2010-01-18T04:21:00.000-08:00

okie, it's my bday on this day. ahahs, happy birthday to myself =))! oh well, it's just my 20th birthday, haha! ahhh i feel abit old now already. i start to get to like uhm, how to say? i don't really like it when people mention that i'm 20 years old! i just feel so old for godsake. roflmaos! i'm over the teenages lifes already, and that's pretty sad. but it's okay, i'm still young at heart. woot.! haha! yang thm helped me to celebrate my birthday. at first, i celebrate earlier on the 16th, morning i celebrated in the office. i asked michael to join, but he couldn't make it. )= that's so sad, sigh. he've got meeting. it's like why at this very time he got meeting. urghs. i was a quite disappointed but since it's my special day, i just control and yeahs. then after office hours, cause on the 16th, that's on saturday, so i only work half day. after that, about 6.00pm, we went excapade for dinner, bunch of girls, then after dinner only gather up with the guys at my place. before going back to my house, we went soon lee, to buy some movies, laopo actually wanted to get the halloween ll. but i scared those kind of movies and yeahs, those thrillers, it's like urghs @.@ really scary! then actually wanted to get one of the thailand horror movies, but we never buy that. instead of getting the thailand horror movie, we bought indonesian horror movie 'Pocong'. my effing god, this horror movie, is the first dam movie that puts me to hell! so fucking scary can. zzz! some part might look abit over but still it's really.. .__. yeah i don't need to repeat. haha! before watching movie they played wii. and yeahs.. play finish le jiu watch that movie luhs. they countdown with me, then like greeted me at 12.00am. but my jiahaur kor, was the very first person who greeted me on my birthday, exact date! haha! he didn't come to my place. )= that's so sad. cause he've got something on on that night. so he called me on that night. after movies, we just had some drinking sessions then yeahs. i uh.. actually was expecting him to message me, BUT HE DID NOT! i was so effing dissapointed and sad. zzz -____-ll actually karen, yang and jia en were going to overnight at my place, but karen and yang didn't make it. but jia en did. so i send them home after everyone home. yang were like so blur, tipsy, so red, haha! she's actually layin on the sofa like a dead pig already. then we just woke her up. and yeahs brought her home, cause she wanted to go home. then after sending everyone home, left me and jia en in the car, so we talked about some stuffs. so i told him about my feelings towards michael. after halfway of our conversations, i finally say out my feelings, the time when i told jia en that i really miss him, my tears just start rolling down on my cheeks, and started to cry badly. she told me that he wil message me to greet me and stuffs, since my birthday also haven't end yet. then i confidently answered her back that, ' he won't, he don't even bother, i don't think he even remember! ' everyone greeted me, but not him. )'; i fucking cried on my birthday man geez! =___=! till late night, i really gave up waiting for his message already. then about 11ish, my phone rang, and i received one message, when i check who it was.. then i saw his name! he messaged me! i'm like OMFGWTFZX! i was so effing hyper! i just.. SO HAPPY CAN!? zzz! when i open the message, when i read the message he sent me, i was so happy. eventhough it's just a simple message from him, but it means alot to me.. then we start messaging a little while more, actually i end the message indirectly lol, but since he still continue message me, then i'll just continue. ^___^! teeheee! and also cause he never come to the office, i ask him to accompany me till my birthday's over! lalalas~ hehee! then so on and on~

till today, the 18th of jan, lala! i was like bored to death sitting down in the office doing nothing, sumore i got nothing to do, z! then missing him like *censored!* HEEHEE! then my colleage ask me to call him, but i scared he's busy or something, like scare i might bother him doing his work, but in the end i still call him though, the time when he picked up the call, i was like seriously asking him if he's free as if there's something happened, then he say he's not really that busy, still okayy and the time when he asked me why, i started to like say ' BORING BAHHH ! ' then he's like CHEYYYY!! THOUGHT WHATT!! ' then he laughs. haha! love to listen his laughters, just brighten up my day so much! we talked for quite long.. then he just keep gek me and stuffs. arghhhhh just miss him so much lah! that's it! wish to see him soon larhs! heee! kk, i'll stop here! ^^ teehee! if continue, my story wouldn't finish lahhs~~! tatas!!

M.

2010-01-15T07:33:00.000-08:00

few days more, will be my bday. i don't feel excited, not feeling happy either. i'm just feeling so.. down. then keeps raining so heavy. it's so.. sighs.. sky is so dull, makes my mood also dull.. maybe god knows.. that i'm really feeling unhappy.. since the day i started to get so emotional about you..
the rain never stops until now.. i also want to be happy, but i just couldn't. i'm feeling so frust, so stress.. my life is like getting so complicated. it's like becoming worst. 2010, shouldn't i be happier? it's just the beginning of the new year, just the first month, then i became so down. i feel like finding someone to talk to. but the someone i feels like turning to, won't ever listen to me again. lets say.. we're not friends anymore. we used to talk about alot of things. that's why i chose to turn to him, when i'm feeling so unhappy right now. but seems like, i can only keep it to myself. noone can ever help me out.. i feel like, if ever we can talk about my stuffs, he'll be the only person i'd listen to. no idea why, but i just feel that is. i'm so moody, frust, stress about thinking about someone i like now. i don't know why, and how i'll become like this. i just miss him so much, wanting to see him so much. miss him till, almost gone crazy. i feel so.. i don't know how to describe my feelings. sighs, i've got no mood to continue.. need a break right now..

KK New yr , Razz Ma Taz . ( upload some only )

2010-01-08T20:55:00.000-08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR! X3

2010-01-02T06:43:00.000-08:00

it's been so long that i've stop blogging, and there's so effing many things that i wanna

blog about, but right now i don't really have much time. i'll blog when my laptop adaptor

is fixed. && Happy New Year 2010 to all of yous x33 hope 2010 will be the best year

to me. teehee! celebrated with bunch of my crazy friends and yeahs had so much fun..

went to razz merazz? nvm, i forget the club name =.= but tht's in kk. =3 hehe! my

cousin joined me, and yeahs.. so on and on~ took many pics though, but the pics

are not with me yet though, still with my mei. haha! all of em pics are in her camera..

MAYBE i'll upload em when i get it or maybe not..? haha! it just depends whether

i'm lazy or not.. hehehe! alright till here then =P something that i almost but nv

forget to say.. 2009's xmas & new year were the best day for me. i'm lovin' it! VERY

MUCH! x3 tatass ^^

DALLEN WONG (Darren Wong)

2009-12-16T05:15:00.000-08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DALLEN WO DE KUN (english translate, my stick! ; DARREN WONG TECK LUEN !) HAHAH! okay it's belated, i didn't have the time to post it on Monday, so Happy Belated, wOoo, 18th liao lorhs, do what also legal, huhu, can go clubbin liao, woot! xD all the best to ya btw ;D and goodluck in every thing you do, and your exams ^.^

Fuck My Mixpod

2009-12-14T03:25:00.000-08:00

fuck it, so big, but malas care la, got song can edi.

(;

2009-12-14T01:35:00.000-08:00

hmm, what should i say? today's quite a boring day, one of my colleage that i'm close with at work never come to work today, cause she got into a car accident. i was shocked at the first place, then her dad say she's fine and it wasn't that serious then okay already, get well soon lyn =)

secondly, hmm, well i went to nanyang to see the pictures we took yesterday night. i attended my mum's friend wedding dinner. then took quite alot of pictures, so after work i went to choose the pictures there, and meet up my parents there. well =_=" i was quite like uhm =___= zz? cause me and my family was suppose to take picture with my mum's friend, the bride and groom, then this guy, whatever his name is ( i know his name but i don't wanna mention, cause it sorta irritates me? =__= ), he was like bumped to me and join in to take picture, already say we one family then he come join in for fuck? -___-" standing beside me, act like as if he's my boyfriend zzzzz.. put his hand on my shoulder again -___-" okay lah, he's not bad looking quite good looking, but zzzz? i just don't like him.. and he's very hao lian, and to be honest, to people whom i don't know, i don't look friendly at all.. you can say i might have some kind of those lan c look? (well, to some people la, especially to those people i dislike.) i know it's quite bad to do that, but i just couldn't help it, that's my attitude already. i've tried to change, but i couldn't. oh well~ who cares =___= but anyways.. at that moment, i really hope that he's Michael. i really really miss you. 5 days for not seeing you, but at least we talked on the phone for like 20ish minutes on last friday, but still, i'm really hoping to see you soon. 20ish minutes, i know it's not long, but better than nothing =) he laughed alot, gek me alot, and much much more. sometimes he so suddenly became so gentle soft and sweet, i will like melt? haha! whatever (: seeing my mummy's friend marry, i also want sia! hahaha! i know right, i'm still so young, but just imagine mahs, nothing wrong also what, not like i've commited a crime? rofls. then i start wondering when will be my turn, mummy's friend also like keep asking when my turn, lol. Michael, i seriously missing you like nutz now, i miss your smiles and your laughters, and how silly your look was when you laughed.. and how you looked at me with some silly faces. it just so sweet.. sighs..

few days back, i was thinking to go back maple, i wanna play but feeling pretty lazy, but my friends all play back maple lors, then also makes me wants to play back, i wanna play back my first account, but that account was married. i don't mind about it though, but i'm afraid that it reminds me of all the sweet times when me and my ex were together. i thought it's nothing, but seems like i'm afraid to think of the past. i don't know why, i suddenly so fear about this. probably is because, escaping, is the method i used to forget about my ex. so whenever he comes into my mind i just keep escaping, then so maybe this is the reason why i fear? eventhough i sorta like fancy Michael now, but.. i don't know @__@? i just don't wanna go back to the past nor think about it =___=" but, i don't wanna keep on like that, so i'll just, play back.. but when i start copying the game, it seems like it doens't want me to play eh? keep failed to copy the application, been trying for 2 times, it's still the same, but i'll still keep on trying till i can play, maybe? =D

well, everything went pretty well after i've let go my ex. he's enjoying his life and i'm enjoying mind. and i'm glad that we're still friends, but we're not as close as before anymore. i guess every couples are like that? i wonder how some other couples, after breaking up can be such best friends? sigh :) eventhough we're not close, but i'm still hoping to meet him some day. =)

and wOOOttTtt! next year, next month, first month, JANUARYY ! x3 canot wait cannot wait ! i don't know why i cannot wait but i just cannot wait! lol! i don't have plannings yet but i want to plan! i wish Michael will spend with me ar lolol ! HAHAHA ! but don't think so bahs , i think he wouldn't even know .___. but i hope he knows lah~ (hoping someone can spread to him TEE-HEE!) blekx blekx! lalalas~ k lah, that's all for todayyyy! =3 update whenever i feels to =P, it wouldn't be everyday, but yeahs, whenever i feels like ^___^

loveloves,
(:

it's been a long long timeeee!

2009-12-10T07:18:00.000-08:00

Bloggie! it's been so long ever since i've stop blogging, oh well, i'm kinda busy and sorta lazy

as well ;O whoops! teehee! and yeahs, most of the times i'm afk and somemore always out..

out out out~ what to do, it's so boring at home, somemore stress over work, but i'm still kind

of enjoying it? =) well why? it's because there's so many things happen between my work and

my life =) there's alot of happy and unhappy things happened all these while.. many interesting

things happened to me too.. i think i did mentioned a guy named Michael in my i don't know

which previous post but yeah, i met him like i don't know when, haha. I remember the first

time i saw him, he came in with our company boss, and when i see him, i'm like not interested

at him at all. when he walked in to my office, i turned and looked at him once but never

twice, he seems kinda like ' hidung tinggi ' the first time i saw him. that how he looks only lah,

lol, but infact, i'm like more ' hidung tinggi (aka lan c?) ' than him. =S well, xi guan jiu hao ^^

tee-hee! hmm, after that time, i never been seeing him for quite sometimes already, and i

also never bother and never ask my colleage about who he is. that time i was still in my old

office. but now we've moved to a new one, and yeah everything planned by him. people told

me that he's a designer. then there's one time, when we almost move to the new office, i went

there and take a look, and assist those workers, see what they're doing.. and he was there too.

he suddenly said hi to me and talked to me, like nothing really much though, just some craps.

after i've done with my stuffs, he helped me too. and he also helped his workers with some

of the heavy works. he kinda touched me when i see him helping them, he's not the kinda

person as what i thought. so yeahs, never judge a book by it's cover, outside it might looks

boring, but what's inside, it's like kinda interesting? hahaha! whatever! he kinda joke with me

about some work stuffs, it's sorta suddenly but yeah, we weren't close at all, and don't know

each other at all, till that day when he started to talk to me, and came up to me and joke with

mi, i guess that's how we know each other? if he never come talk to me that time, i guess i'll

never know him until now. from that time, whenever he come to my office, he would smile

and say hi to me, well ofcourse lah! friends what? O.o swt. haha! but whenever he sees me,

he will like, u know ' fang dian ' but i know he was playing only lah , but i just smiled back .

then after sometimes, i didn't see him anymore. sometimes i wonder where he is, cause i

never see him anymore =S from the time i saw him helping his workers, i have a good feelings

on him already, nothing pretty much till i forgot when? but yeh , we get even more close when

we moved to the new office. whenever we see each other, we will talk, joke and he will gek

me, and i wil gek him, lol. till i keep hit him also when he gek me . i treated him like normal

friends when we got closer. and feelings starting to develop . it's like almost everyday i see

him, cause we have project with him in the office . when times gets longer , and until last

week, he still comes to my office. i starting get used to see him always already, sometimes

when he doesn't show up , i'll keep thinking wher he is , why he don't come , and what is he

doing right now .. but whenever i sees him , i get really effing happy , and he is too i reckon ?

cause whenever he sees me and i sees him , we've got a big big smile on our face . the smile

on my face , it's some kind of smile that i never have before in my life ? it's like a ' xin fu '

smile .. and his smile too , he's always smiling and laughing whenever he talks to me and sees

me . my whole office colleage and even the factory people say that i'm blooming ? zz -__-??

at first, they thought that he's my cousin? second time people asking if he's my brother? i

asked them, if we do look alike? O.o they said yeah, sortof ? haha ! maybe we got this so

called ' fu qi xiang ' ? hahaa! then got this time , i get into his car , follow him to the other

block of my office , i didn't wanna walk cause it's very sunny and it's really hot , and he just

drove me there and yeah, his workers saw us, then they're like keep disturbing me but not

him. =S i keep wonder why at first, then in the end i only found out that he's manager . z

and i treated him like as if he's not @__@" but i never care though, i still play and joke with

him like usual . from the time i started to keep wondering where he was when he nv show

up, i realize that i've already kinda fall for him ? i don't know =S my feelings were just so

weird for not seeing him . and he always surprise me .. there's this time , on one saturday

noon , his worker came to my work place and fix something , we're half day that time on

saturday actually, but i stayed back cause i've got nothing to do at home also , when his

worker came , i asked them where's he , they say he's alone in the office , they ask me to

message him lol , i was kinda scared though , but i messaged him that time . and that was my

first time to message him , i messaged him about , uh .. something like .. ' uiitts! wooo so

lonely in the office ar blablabla ' just to disturb him lahs , then he very slow reply me , cause

he's doing his work , but still he replied , after his reply when i was about to reply him ,

he suddenly came , i was so surprise and shocked , like came out of nowhere ? lols . and i

was so happy that time , i still remember how it was like to be when he came . every single

stupid and silly things he did , makes me smiles alot . he's always smiling whenever i sees him

and whenever he talks to me he's always laughing . haha . but that day , and i forgot which

day , i called him , talk to him about some stuffs at work , he sounds different from usual .

he sounds abit moody , i don't know what happened to him , and i never ask him also ,

although i wanna know what happened but i don't wanna ask =S then when he came to find

me after we hung up the phone not long , he smiles to me , but it's not the usual smile he

gave me like before . my day became so down that day .. i don't know how he influenced

me so much .. then the next day , when i called him , he's okay already , then i'm happy

that the original him has finally back =) hmm , there's still alot alot more , too much to say .

here's a ' facing back ' picture of him , hahah ! i like this picture alot , and i secretly took it =P

didn't wanna post the picture of me and him cause i look effing eff-ed up in there =S but

eventhough i don't look good in there , i still love the picture very much . (:

here it is . Back side of Michael =P picture which i love very much .
haha , i don't know why but he looks cool in there ? =S
i don't know what so cool about it but i just love it , eh !
fyi! not that kaling yeh ! X____X"
Let me introduce him =P
he's 25 this year , and his name is ( noneed i say you also know lah , mention
his name so many times up there already ) surname of his is
ShiM x3 (= and and ..
SECRET* (actually nothing more =D )

btw btw .. some more pictures i've took in Korea, i have mood then upload lah ,
so lazy to do it already , sooooo effing many and yeahh @___@ lazy
to wait .. nyekk . nighty nights Mickey Mouse ( nick i gave him =P ) and to my blog
readers and blog =)) tatas ^^

lalalas~ xD

2009-12-02T20:11:00.000-08:00

I know i'm vain, but..
WHO CARES xD

stil got alot ah, continue nx time, late odi now. wan slep xD

2009-11-30T04:08:00.000-08:00

picsss~

2009-11-10T04:07:00.000-08:00

pretty right her? (:

can i adopt this bear as my pet? so effing cute !

looks scary though, lols.

saw the roller coaster behind? it's the largest, longest and huge-est roller coaster in this world leis, and i can't belive i''ve ride on it lohs, swt, my first time is in time square, this one second, wt.. first one oledi scare mi to death, this one drag mi to heaven sia, scare dao my heart also almost fly out, zzz..

eh this pic, why dabalek, swt. i lazy dlt and rotate it, lols.

haunted house ;O!

EVERLAND ! x3

look how cold outside was? it was 7 degree sia. .__. not yet negative but it's quite cold already swt.

hotel batheroom lol.

random . heh .

full of maple leaves.. maple leaves reminds mi of him..

how i wish that two couples were me and you..

those flowers are pretty right? xD

this thingy, is so effing cute, it's like he's drooling xD haha!

(:

Random peoples, but this guy, looks japanese ei, and not bad looking huh? xD

Nami Island.

the way they spell hotdog? HAHA!?

x3

so tempting!and effing CUTE!

pretty girls? xD

i forgot what this place =.=

my first day lunch in korea. not bad lahs, but yeah, whatever .__.

my first day breakfast in Korea, er.. it don't look that tasty? but it is..? haha!

look how long that bridge is, and aww.. gong gong popo , sweet hor ? go vacation together. envy!

my yiyi =))

Korea airport.

eh just reached korea airport. vain in toilet? rofls! mirror is mi, all white mi mum, the one beside her.. unknownnnn Lol!

Ahhh continue nxt timee~ too many.. i want slep jor.. nights! <3

Back From Korea And Something About My Hardtimes.

2009-11-01T00:11:00.000-07:00

finally i'm back from korea le, super tired. didn't had enough sleep. had lotsa fun, shopping and all. been to alot of places. there's this place, called nami island. it's the lovers park. in that park, full of couples. i see le, envy them so much, by that time, the only person i could thought of is you. how i wish i could go there with you. like those other couples, holding hands, walking and enjoying the scenery. it's really one beautiful place. full of maple trees. the colour of the leaves, are really pretty. i should be happy, but i'm sad instead. cause it reminds me of you. maple leaves.. maple game.. you said it's a bad memories to me, but you're wrong, it's not. you say you made my life uncomfy, no. you said because of those girls arounds you made me had a bad time.yes and that was before. but i didn't really mind anymore, is you who mind now bahs? you're the one who can't take what people around you says. you're the one who can't endure all the stuffs. i never break my promise, until now, been few months since we broke up, i still love you. if there's a chance for us to be back together, i will want.. maybe things might not be the same anymore, but i'm willing to give it a try.. but will you? you said since i can't forget you, then you will help me to forget you.. but the way you did, it never works. it makes me heart breaking even more. when you said you gonna disappear from my life.. do you know how it feels? i was really really very down.. i don't even know what to do nor say.. i really miss you.. sighs.. i really want you back.. )'; sometimes, feels like messagin you, ask how are you, but i didn't dare. and somehow, i don't think you will even reply me too.. i miss you C.H.. i went to one shopping centre in seoul, i saw one white colour jacket, wordings are in gold.. the words was C.H, the first thing i thought of, it's you. i didn't buy that shirt.. but i wish to buy.. didn't buy because, you don't belong to me anymore.. if we still together, i would just buy it down without thinking and give it to you.. i pictured it down though.. but i'll post it like when i'm free. too many pictures taken in korea. somemore, i still very tired and didn't get enough sleep. this is my hard times.

and now about Korea. this place is AWESOME! except the foods. it doesn't taste really good, and there's no oily foods in korea. all very super healthy food, haha! for us asians, i don't think we will get used to the foods. it's like everyday almost the same foods, and all vegetables.. it's like.. omgosh =___=!" but i love the sausages there, all big and long, omg! sounds so wrong right? but it's true though, it's really tasty and yeah~! alot of flavours though, got the pepper and all blabla.. the place in Korea is really nicee.. i don't know how to describe it but it's like really WOAHH~! i'm in love with that country already.. if ever i have the chance, i will migrate to seoul~ start a new life there, and forget about everything.. noone knows me there.. just on my own.. the only thing very hard for us is to communicate with koreans. most of them doesn't know how to speak english, only some.. so it's pretty hard. and you know what, bananas in korea is really super expensive! how forgot how much it cost already but it's like double triple price from asian country.. sounds very kua zhang? but i'm not bluffing seriously. lolx.! there's so many shops that sells only girl's stuffs. hardly can see got guy's stuffs de.. lols.. and couples there, very heng wear couple shirts.. see le also envy.. haiss.. when will i have that chance ei? lalas~ went there with my mami, yiyi and my cousin though, four of us. we follow tour luhs, and is like only a small tour, but very fun and yeahs. the time over there, is like faster than our time one hour lorhs, then we every morning have to wake up at 6! to get ready! =.= then have to leave hotel at 7aM! and it's like we have to wake at 5 at our time, and 6 o clock have to go out already, wth? early in the morning go out makan then shopping and visit places. first time in my life. sweat. but still okay la, it's not like everyday though, if there's another chance, i wish to go again lurhs.. with friends, or someone i love. happy and enjoy together.. spent about 6 days in Korea. spend lotsa moneys too.. .___. bill also go boom boom @___@ but still okay lahs, not everyday xD once in blue moon that's okay.. heees! the cakes in Korea is super pretty! cute! lovely and sweet looking! tasty or not, i don't know but i think yes! xD and the ice cream there, woot! love it so much, i ate one flavour ice cream, it's really super nice, sumore my favourite colour hahas~ it's purple and pink, and the ice cream name is ' Love Me '. so sweeet! xD went to those emperor's museum blabla.. alot of places.. interesting lorhs, then the weather there i super love la.. the temperature there is like 7 degree nia, kinda cold though =S but still good. gang gang hao xD

Everland is one theme park, this place, is really.. WOW.. macam wonderland lahh~! i go there, i see dao the place, i feel that i'm in dreamland. hahas~ the candy shops is soooo~~~~~ omg~ hhaha! and i've played one the ride there, it's like super scary can.. -___- world largest and longest leh, omg..! sumore it's my second time play on this kinna rides.. i very scare de lors, my first time is in KL time square, for you people maybe it was just okay, but for me, i scare till lungs also wil fly out.. Lols. but boh pien, in KL is kena friend force.. threaten me sumore. in Korea de, my cousin ask me play also, i also don;t know what wind blow my go play, go dao up there, then super regret, want go down also canot.. -___- then got one 60 year old woman also go play leh! walao.. i see her so not scare, then i also don't want lose.. but end up still lose 99.. Lol! when the ride go down, your butt and legs is like not stick on the seats leh, waliew.. scare die me ah. i so scare i fly out sehh =___= my cousin still want play second round, when i come down from the ride, my leg already canot walk properly.. sot liao.. stil want play second round .___. fuuuu~~~ until here first la, continue type de hua, macam writing essay already, too many and too much to type lahs.. xD

nyehhs =)) pictures will be post when i'm free =)

for you. only you.

2009-10-22T07:59:00.000-07:00

for you.. only you.. someone whom i will never forget, never will stop loving silently. never regret loving, whom i lost.. whom i need to pretend that i've never met him before. i'm sad, very sad. very down, but i still will keep on smiling. maybe this way, it will be really better for me.. to let me to have the chance to really get over you.. eventhough really miss you.. but i still have to let you go.. from couple to friends then to strangers.. how hard is it to pretend. do you know? can you feel? well yeahs, maybe i've made you really upset with me.. till we have to be this way.. but.. i guess there's nothing i could say anymore. just to let you know.. i really really miss you.. it's really heartbreak for us to be like that.. hmms... sighhs.. ~

goodbye.

2009-10-20T08:40:00.000-07:00

i don't care what people says..
what i care is, words that you said..
other people, wan anyhow say me also can..
but not youu..

suan le.. over jiu over.. since u choose to disappear from my life.. forever?
i also nothing to say and nothing i can do..
wish u all the best..
and stay happy with whoever you will be with next..
goodbye.

Life Is Never Fair

2009-10-17T08:06:00.000-07:00

(= my title of this post describe all~

sigh

2009-10-12T08:32:00.000-07:00

gg-ed. i sucks =)

what's on my mind?

2009-10-12T07:12:00.000-07:00

what's on my mind? sighs, i feel so fan.. confused, and stressed.. about what sia?
cry over something lame, something weird, didn't get myself enough sleep also. work's
stressful. sometimes, really feel like ending my life. i'm being emo? obviously i am.
what am i seriously thinking? it is so effing complicated. i just wanna be an ordinary
girl with no stress and happy life nia, but it seems so hard for me to do so? i wanna
get things outta my mind.. don't wanna thnk so much nohs.. sien.. end here first bahs,
don't know what else to say anymore.

i am bored!

2009-10-09T23:46:00.000-07:00

wo hen bored,
bored dao ya si!
got semo dong xi do?
wo later maybe going berenang,
but wo ye got yi dian bu xiang xD
but wo you hen xiang go
so overall,
i got jiang equals to mei you jiang

XD

Dreamt about a guy who used to call me fishball.

2009-10-05T01:42:00.000-07:00

i never know until i dream about you. i thought i won't think of you anymore, but after

i had a dream about you, i dare not admit, but my heart tells me i miss you so..

makes me wants you back so much, but we're better in this way.. my dream is kinda lame,

but also sad to me, and yeahs.. somehow & i don't know why, i dream about like it's the end of the

world already. it's like i'm going to die anytime, and soon. i called him.. and we talked for quite

long. i remembered i cried in my dreams, but i was happy also cause we talked. i've already

tried my very best to forget about you, and not to think about you and miss you. i don't know..

it seems so hard.. it's so hard to get you out of me. i am strong on the outside. but i'm so weak

in the inside. so many things on mind, in my heart, left unspoken. i'm so speechless, stoned.

tell me.. tell me how to not love you anymore?

I Miss You..

KK & KOREA ! =3

2009-10-05T01:37:00.000-07:00

wooot ! i cannot wait to go Kk and Korea! hahaa! 23rd will be off to Kk ( Sabah ), then 24th will be

heading off to Korea, wootxzxz! ^___^ will be there about 6 days =) then go back Kk, for don't

know how long? heees~ but today just first week of October T-T hais~ long way to go..

it's been awhile

2009-10-02T04:59:00.000-07:00

wooot . it's been awhile since i've stop blogging =) it's not that i no time la actually. just that

sometimes quite lazy lohs, but somehow, no matter how, or whatever shit is up, i will still blog

geh, tee-hee~! wind these days very strong lohs, heavy rain also, hais, abit pa pa D;! philipine

flood like really geng sia =_= haiss.. untill rooftop ehhs =__- that day here also, walaos.. wind dam

strong lohs.. imagine, one super heavy metal chair also can kena blow til far far away.. not kua

zhang or whatever, but it's true ehs.. haiss..~ i don't want die so fast can ma? T-T

another topic! Lols, wo ji random yi xia.. but nvm lahs, xi guan jiu hao =D hahaha! =]

these days, quite fan about something lohs, but nothing de bahs? hmmm.. how to say arhhs?

hahahas, nvm change topic again =__= LOL~ yesterday went bsb loh, then meet up with

teddy shiong, ah tong them.. nothing really much, that teddy shiong, really gek si wo ah =__=

kns de, then saw ah zai with his girl in MCD nohs.. lalalas~ sorta miss someone siol ! woot ! haha

who ehs ? don't know sia. hahaa! dumdeedum~ my post macam rojak.. nvm la, write a better

one next time! teehee! :D

BOO WEI'S B'DAY~!

2009-09-26T08:24:00.000-07:00

Kit( the guy in Pink ) Look so Funneh~ haha!

Di, Kor & Andy

Andy & Darren

Boo Wei's is totally wasted!

BooWei [wasted ] Andy [Making Fun] haha!

Zai, Boo & Ze Wah.

Di Kissed Boo.

Andy Kissed Boo.

@_____@

Zai & Boo.

GG soon.

Andy, Sexy eh? :D

Girl also lose him ah.. =P

WOooOt!

Boo the Birthday Boy. =)

Kor, Di & Fook.

Zai(2)

Zewah in white, Zhong an in Red & Andy in Black!

Amery [up] then Mk, Darren & Joann.

sweet eh? O.o

Kit disturbin Boo.

Darren kissed Boo.

@____@ what can i say? hahahaha!

Zai(2) & Andy.. SEXY ENOUGH!? :D

Andy smiled till so sweet here :D

Jeff, Zai(2) & Andy? hahah!

Look at Jianyung [ guy in pink ] & Siew [ guy in Green ] face expressions =P

Zhong an!

Roland..

Before Stars Sleeping =)

2009-09-24T06:09:00.000-07:00

why am I still here in the rain..

2009-09-24T05:15:00.000-07:00

I often close my eyes, And I can see you smile. You reach out for my hand, And I'm woken from

my dream. Although your heart is mine, It's hollow inside. I never had your love, And I never will

And every night, I lie awake. Thinking maybe you love me, Like I've always loved you. But how

can you love me like I loved you when you can't even look me straight in my eyes. I've never felt

this way. To be so in love, To have someone there, Yet feel so alone. Aren't you supposed to be

the one to wipe my tears? The one to say that you would never leave? The waters calm and still

My reflection is there. I see you holding me, But then you disappear. All that is left of you, Is a

memory. On that only, exists in my dreams. I don't know what hurts you, But I can feel it too.

And it just hurts so much. To know that I can't do a thing, And deep down in my heart somehow

I just know that no matter what, I'll always love you.

(U)

Night at my house.

2009-09-24T03:41:00.000-07:00

nothing much though, my mei and Pauline Chua aka Pohli just come hang outt.. then we're like too over bored =.=! took some emo pictures~ but i didn't take any.. cause i not in the emo mood~ then if not in emo mood, picture out also abit weird weird~! hahaha! so yeahs, gonna post the pictures nowww ! ^^

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MUST WATCH! <3 MY FAV IDOL!

2009-09-24T02:38:00.000-07:00

sibei PRO lohh! i wanna learn this song also! sobbs!

Selamat Hari Raya

2009-09-21T06:16:00.000-07:00

SELAMAT HARI RAYA TO EVERYONEE =)
MUSLIMS AND NON-MUSLIMS. =D

2009-09-21T00:02:00.000-07:00

Went Sushi King with brother in Sarawak(Miri)

FLoods in my Office

Siew, Zai(2), Darren & Soong.

Amery, Mei & Di .

Zai(2)

Hao & Tong

Pohli & Mk

Andyyyyy~

Pohli, Mk, Mei and Di in arcade.

Zai with his purple FACE! :D

Ah zai(1) & i forgot name =S

Lung & Mei.

Awww~!

guess what he's blowing? Lols .. ~.~

Siew, Stoner[Jiayih], Andy, Darren, Ah Zai(2), Jy

Andy Chiew :D

Andy's Condom Deco Cake.

WOoOoOoTzzz!

2009-09-20T23:45:00.000-07:00

FINALLY ! update my blog ! teehees ! feeling lazy and tired nowadays =/ and also actually don't

really have the time to do so.. hahas.. go out, come back also tired dy.. hmm, so from where

should i actually start? O.o haha, maybe it's on Andy's 18ths birthday party! haha! i think i've

stop blogging for awhile after Andy's birthday? or maybe nevermind, i don't remember already!

teehee~! oh well ! Andy's Birthday~! hahaha! i got pictures of himm, nothing really much i could

blog about.. just that his cakee~! his friend ze wah made him one cake.. that cake really super

nice loh it tastee =) design also DAM UNIQUE! hahaha! it's Some Condoms Cake! hahaha! you'll

see it later.. it's not like it taste like rubber =.= it's just the DECO! hahaha~! the cake flavor is

Oreo Cheese Cake! My Favourtie somemore! haha! =3 then they start drinking quite late lahs~

ahhaas~ and ah zai.. he drink till his face turnnnn PURPLE! usually people's face turns red de

but his purple..! hahas, speciall eii? :D and and yesterday is was another ah zai's birthday~! but

i don't have his pic =/ eh nvm i think i have. but it's him with his friends.. so....

HAPPY BELATED 18TH BIRTHDAY TO YOU AH ZAI! =))!

went out with Denis them yesterday, then meet up Jianyung & Zai.. we went play pool though!

cause there's nothing better to do anymore.. =/ Denis sibei funny loh =.=" HE DANCE ON THE

STREET! HAHAHA! Michael Jackson's MOVES! LoL~! =.=!" Then suddenly so many car pass

by.. then he stopped, but Andy them dared him to do it another time.. and if he do it, he'll

pay for his meals for one whole week.. but Denis didn't want.. hahaha! and i laughed like mad =.=

Dengg.. oh and last friday! i went mall, cinema to watch G-Force! IT'S SO EFFING CUTE!

like really really dam cute! and it's really very nice loh that movie! people who haven't watch

should really try it! haha!

EDMUND CHIN~! T-T he went UK yesterday~ haiss.. didn't get to yumcha with him D;! he'll

be studying in UK for like, i not quite sure how long, but he's coming back for his birthday~!

so i can't wait to see him next year =)! cause it's been quite long ever since i saw him.. sighhs~

anyways.. i don't know what else to blog le @.@! hahaha~! tatasss~!

Sexy Back

2009-09-20T23:29:00.000-07:00

I'm Bringing Sexy BaCk~!
Them Other Girls Don't Know How To Act~
I Think It's Special What's Behind Your Back~
So Turn Around and I'll Pick Up The Slack~

guess whose back? ;O! hahas.
i don't know (A)!

Rivers Flow In You

2009-09-09T07:48:00.000-07:00

hmmm.. i'm feeling so stone, so emotional and maybe down? mood swings.. no idea why..

listening to the soft musics, makes me think of the past.. maybe i should have stop listening to it.

but i can't help it. it's just too nice.. the melody is really sweet.. it's so relaxing.. it's like i can die

peacefully.. =/ sighhs.. i wish i can play piano though.. the melody its like, there something we

coulnd't tell from our heart.. so it's like we release it out by playing the piano? that's to me..

too bad, i only know drums =__= haiss.. feels like going out for a walk alone.. somehow, feels like

going to some place that nobody can find me.. it's like there's something botherng me.. so much

things in mind.. but i don't know what isit.. or maybe i know..? i just keep on escaping from it..

i don't know.. maybe this post, my blog readers will feel weird? after so much of the bitching

stuffs, my next post suddenly became so calm and down.. =/ somehow.. the music really makes

me feels like crying.. x___X you guys should try it..

2009-09-09T07:40:00.000-07:00

I write you a song but I can't find the words to say
To tell you what's on my mind
But even a symphony can't say what you mean to me

2009-09-07T05:33:00.000-07:00

Some People Is Happy About She Get Fucked Before =3
Who's That Person? ;O
Everybody Knows =D Differentless From A Chicken~
Tsk Tsk Tsk~ Dare to Do Things Behinds People's Back,
But Not In Front, Sucha Coward,
Hais, Really.. Shame On You Man~ Go Fuck Sumore Guys Lahs,
Ask Them Massage Your Tiny Little Boobs,
Let It Grow Bigger =]
Tskk~ I Wish You Will Just Rest In Peace Next Year..
Aihs~ Give You Few More Months To Enjoy Helping Other Guys Masturbate
And Also Sex.. I Know You Love It.. ^__^ Since You're So Damn Proud That
You Get Fucked Before =D

Netball <3

2009-09-07T03:08:00.000-07:00

wooot ! today went netball .. hahas . before that i went out for lunch with Kit, Andy, Siew, Stoner,

Di & Mei, after that was suppose to go play pool de, but full house @.@! so no jadi.. .___. then

also almost 4.30pm already, sumore no place to go, then we go school first lohs, play bball

awhile.. then when about to shoot this Janice ah! hahaha! come bang me lagii.. we both fell down,

deng.. haha! when all of the netball members are already here then only we start the game.. =3

i used to play GA though )= but really, quite long didn't play already.. )'= lack of stamina, sobs!

so no choice lah, choose GS nia, goal shooter =D play till about 5.40ish lidat, then kit they all

went back to seria for bball already, then we also lacking players, so we stopped too, haha!

some went for bball, and since my mei went back home already.. then i go home also luu, abit

lazy for bball ahaha, just wanna shower >__< ! feeling HOT! HAHAHA! then that shoe, really

stupid loh =__= so pain ahh my feeet!!!! *sniffs!!* aihhs~ nothing much happened today bahs..

just that my feet really.. GG.com! Roflllss!!~ =___= this wed netball againn =3 wahaha! no

pictures taken D;! ahahah! nvm.. no time also.. nyehh! =P

ESPECIALLY FOR YA (L)

2009-09-04T08:02:00.000-07:00

eh listen up beech! you really don't have to actually ask ONE by ONE of your friends to visit

my blog eh, for what? so what if i post something about ya? you blow eh? asking for backups?

haha! don't make such funny actions lah babe.. oh sorry you're not a babe, more on whore!

what? wan symphaty from peoples? wan people to back you up? want people to talk for ya?

acting one innocent little young girl? comeon' man~ you're fucking old enough, whoops sorry!

i'm starting with my jesus talk! i've forgot about you're a slut =3 which part of my post you not

happy with? come find me, and talk to me, and tell me.. you really don't need to do anything

behind.. not bad lah you, quite steady also can found out my blog yeh ^^ should reward you..

come find me and i'll give you one fucking passion reward =) you will love it.. as i said, want play

then don't hide, dont't do anything behind.. we're childish? please.. oh maybe we are, and

you're damn mature eh? sibei mature loh your thinking, i haven't grow up yet lah, i'm still

young, still cocking about MATURE people LIKE YOU ^^, i know you have a thick face, face

so thick put make up for simi lan? make you prettier arhs? who will think that you are? okay

lah, maybe you are? to those MATURE XIAO DI DI ^^ you want people to kelian you?

ask yourself, you deserve anot oh? what kinna people you are, you fuckin sure than i do loh..

things you said you never do, oh maybe never, but you yourself know =) still not happy

with my post? wanna tell your mum about it? fucking go ahead, i don't even bother, who does?

noone =)

=D ps .

2009-09-03T03:11:00.000-07:00

FORGOT ABOUT THIS CAKE! HAHAHA!
PRETTY ANOT? =DDDD HAHAHAA!
Princess Jeff & Princess Shiong! =3 kekeke!

Picturess on Jeff & Shiong's 18th Bday and some bball pics! =)

2009-09-02T20:33:00.000-07:00

88 Trading =D
Tong, Chai aka ahZai, Shiong [ 3 owners of 88 ] Harvey, Denis
WeiMing, KamSan, Richard and Nien [ also owner of 88 ]

Champion of the month =D Summer Stars!

Carrying Kit.. haha!

SummerStars Vs 88Trading, 88 only lose by 2 points neh. aihs. haha!

Jan & Ming

Darren Luen

Chen & Me. He Look SO Super Young! like xiao di di after his haircut! haha!

PohLi, Me & Laopo

Denis & KamSan

Mei & Di s2

Mei & Me .

Lol nothing do wa, play at the bathtub there =P

Me, Karen, Mei, Li and Laopo

Nice? Top to bottom :D

Mei, Mine, PohLi & Jeff Di.

My Sexy Laopo =P

Laopo and her Ai Ren . :D

JiaHau Kor x3

PohLi.

Sweetest Couple Ever =D HAHA!

Stoner & ZhiHung <-- Funny Guy. Lol

ZhiHung & Ahzai, omg what they doing =S

My Beloved Mei :D

Ah Zai aka Chai , haha :D 24/7 holding phone one =___=

Mei , Karen , J.Hau Kor & Darren .

Shiong & Di . :D their bday cake reall (Y) :D

Early in the morning, they got no place to sleep, so kelian eh, and Brian was wasted. the black shirt one. haha!

Darren Sexy Pose eh? hahha!

Jeff's Di 18th Bay Party

2009-09-01T10:32:00.000-07:00

Di's bday party, celebrated together with shiong though, haha, had quite lotsa fun

=) they all went to the party after the match lohs, but before going to the hotel, they

all went to fred's house to bathe first then wear nice nice, style hair liao only go..

haha! nothing much happened on that day, just di very funny lah, cause he twisted

his ankle ma, then he like cannot walk properly, like dragging his leg to everywhere

he go, hahaa! then also cannot make too much noise, scare people will complain,

but okay lah, hehe! all gather around, that night only have 2 bottles of alcohol lohs,

i oni drink like one cup, and sumore sprite more than whiskey one, haha! so nothing

happen to me, but on that night, really stupd lah, something not good happened

though, so the party half way everyone went down to see what happened, then yeah,

cause after blowing cake, we were looking for weiming, then suddenly he's gone,

and brian and darren lun wasn't there either, so i suspect them went to look for

Irene, and why i suspect that? it's because i heard darren lun say Irene them all

downstars already, i thought he was just joking at first, and just making me angry..

so i never care and never take it seriously, but when the candles just lighten on the

cake, ming actually wanted to talk to me, he ask me to go in toilet there, cause noone

was there at that time, then i was like, just tell me later on, we sing birthday song

to them first okay? then after everyone, 3 of them gone, and i also clicked tio, will

he really go and look for Irene? then i'm really like wtheck?! is like he thinks that

i'm just joking and kidding for asking him not to find that bitch and he didn't belive

what i told him about her at first.. .___. zzz! then i go and ask Pohli where's weiming,

Mei and Yen were searching for him also, then i got pissed. not only me, everyone,

i mean as in, all girls in the party.. then ah fook brought us out to buy drinks, we

went to round in kaybee town, and wtfuck, saw weiming and Irene, then when we

wanna stop them, it's too late, WeiMing get in the car already, then fook honk them..

but they still like wanna go away, or maybe they just got no idea what's going on..

after that, and everything.. Ming go back hotel, and yeahs.. talked to him, about

everything lahs.. so yeahhs.. can you belive? wtf?! that bitch thought fook was

jealous because she and HER SO CALLED BF was DATING at KB TOWN ! o0o

speak out loud and talk to my hand bitch! look at yourself, who wants to get

jealous over a girl like you? who do you think you are? O.o you're noone to

everyone, maybe just to your parents, spoiled brat! =3 sorry but yeah, you are!

teehees! buay song ah? come to me, find me lahs.. every girls hates you! my god.

you really love spoiling your own reputation isn't it? fun eh? enjoying it? i wonder

what on earth you are? which planet you're from? like an alien eh, fck face you have.

those guys who say you're cute! pretty! and stuffs, must be blinded by you? haha

or maybe they just don't know the real you =) but so far, after all the guys knows

about you, everyone is like dislike everything about you. eww you. you just look

suckish.. tsk~ poor you, aights, forget about you.. as what everyone says =3 i'm

just wasting my time on one little bitcher like youu.. hahaha! took quite many pics

on di's birthday, but it's sorta late now already, so i'll just post the pictures up

tomorrow =) haha! nights readers =)

SIZZLING HOT TOPIC! <3

2009-08-31T06:52:00.000-07:00

woooot! one freaking hot topic to talk about! =D teehees! some topic about _ _ E _ E ! guess

who? omg i don't know.. ;O! just some bitch i reckon? =X oh well! ^^ as usual, see this slut here,

if you saw her in anywhere, you can really either slap her, or fuck her ^^ only 2 option =] want

somemore choice? well you can find people to gang bang her though.. she don't mind havig

threesome or foursome party..! ^^ seriously! HEEES! if people who choose to slap her.. please

slap her really hard till she looks like she just got bang-ed by a lorry ): and if you choose to fuck

her, please fuck her really hard till her pussy tears! [ 0=3 i'm such an angel..] OMG! am i being

to evil? =S or too MEAN!? omg i'm really sorry T___T perhaps! i'm being a bitch either! =3

hehehes! you wanna bitch with us?! let me double bitch you back! sighhs.. you think you really

cute huh? pretty? many guys tackle? well maybe lah hor? but i comfirm your heart ain't too

pretty compare to us all girls, hor my girlfriends? ^.^ please go to your mirror and look at

yourself.. how do you look like? what do you see? a fucking slutty bitch right!? oh yes! eh

seriously hor.. you're really a very hot topic to bitch about lah, teehees! so fucking enjoy! =3

you're a hot topic to bitch about but too bad you ain't hot at all, small size, no boobs, fuck face,

ugly hair, ugly icky heart and body.. eWWWW! maybe also kena fucked before omgosh!?

how much do you get per night oh? earn alot ah? wahhhs.. envy eh, then nowander you're

super rich loh.. now i know.. earning money in a super clean way! how cool :D you wanna cock?

we can cock with you too ^^ wanna bitch us back? we'll double bitch you back.. (: you have

today! it's because you asked for it.. you messed with the wrong batch peoples =) when will

we stop? come bow and say sorry to us ): or you also have another option ^^ tell everyone that

you're one fucking slut.. =) easy! ^___^

2009-08-28T22:28:00.000-07:00

words can't tell ..

ALEX SOON . if u happen to see my blog, here's your name =P

some pics =)

2009-08-28T09:53:00.000-07:00

My two pretty babes! x3

waiting for foood =3

Grilled Salmon Fish Head! x3 YUMMEH! =D

Salmon Aspragus & Unaju =D

Eh California Maki issit? :D haha! and Ice Peach Tea & My Fav! Mint Lemon Tea!

Mini Salmon Mayo x3 and i don't know what this calls =_-

wooots!

2009-08-28T09:40:00.000-07:00

oh yeshh! hahaha! today went to buy converse bag that i've been aiming since last week! haha!

the first time i saw the bag, i already fell for it! haha! cause it's so freaking tootly cool! hahaha!

never take pic of it la.. lazy ah! now so late already so tired somemore.. went to watch bball

just now though, so freaking hyper loh me, and i don't know why.. were with darling, auntiepig,

juan, pohli, kor and others too.. hehe! =D before going watch ball, i went excapade with pohli loh.

so dam full man~ =___= cannot even finish the foods lahs.. but today i improve alot lah! o.o"

haha! cause usually i spend almost 30 over plus. but today only 20 plus loh! not bad ah! haha!

then after that, fred came to pick me at my place.. then we all go watch ball le, he also got play

luh.. vs BJ as in black jack! hahaha! not blowjob!* ;O! hahahaha! shout like mad ah! deyy~ =_=

hahaha! but i had alot of fun though, even i'm not feeling any better at heart.. but yeahs~

everything still went well, i cannot wait for tomorrow's party! wanna party till drop! wooot~

should i get drunk? hmm, i feel like? i feel like escaping from so many thngs in my mind, and

on the other hand, i also feel like wanna try to see how is the drunken feeling, they say you

will really suffer alot.. but i never get drunk before O.O!" maybe i should try some day? perhaps

tomorrow? shall see how ey.. planning to overnight at the first place, but if it's too crowded, i

might go home and sleep, hahaha don't like to squeeeeze! i love sleeping alone.. with my big big

bed~ =) anyone want joiin me in my bed? HAHAH! okay that sounds so wrong alright! haha!

woooo... most suay-est thing that happened today is! MY DI FELL AND TWISTED HIS

ANKLE IS LIKE WTF! so pain loh! i first time see him like that eh! =___= how is he going

to party tomorrow? T___T sobbs! he can only sit and stuck at one place.. and he needs people

to help him with everything lohs.. STUPID WAHH THOSE BJ PEOPLES.. PLAY SO ROUGH

FOR SIMI SAI?! WHAT YOU GET?! in the end also lose what! anywayys! sorta late already eh!

but got so many pictures to POST OKAY! can i like do it tomorrow or some other day? ):

becaue i'm feeling really sleepy already.. but, blog without pictures.. won't be really interesting

eh? (: alrigt alright.. i'll post some first.. continue next time.. heees! =3 NIGHTS MY READERS

x333 MUAKKZZZZZ!

T___T 爱你很值得.. 只是该停了..

2009-08-27T02:48:00.000-07:00

有你牵着我的那些日子真的好快乐..

they can take tomorrow and the plans we made..

the music that we'll never play..

the future that we'll never know..

the places that we say we will go..

all the broken dreams.. take everything..

just take it awayy.. but they can never have yesterday..

i've learnt to hold.. but not letting go..

TO JEFF DI AND SHIONG ! ;DDDD

2009-08-26T08:09:00.000-07:00

Shiong & Jeff Di.. :D

UII YOU BOTH! same year, same month, same date maybe different time born de!

hahaha HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY to you both ahh!

18 alreadyy! get license liao bring me aroundd! hahaha! and goodlck

to you both in everything, and may all you both

de WISHES come true ^___^V

BORED & SLEEPY!

2009-08-26T00:25:00.000-07:00

omg! so freaking sien in the office lohs! walaos! imma falling asleep soon la! zz.. nothing to do,

then so quiet! sumore puasa time lahs, all those malays went back early one.. so good lohs! i want

also lahs! but i don't want be malay, and i don't want puasa! hahaha! i just wanna off early, so i

could go back home early and sleeep! omg i miss my bed! i miss my pillow! i miss my soft toy

doggie that i always hug to sleep! and i miss my dog sleeping beside me also! rawrs! just can't

wait to go home and sleep =_= 4.30pm pleaseeeeee reach fast lahhh! aiyooo! now only 3.35m

ahh deyy! =___= someone please get me out of this fucking office! =___= zzz, and i just received

one sms from Pohli, cause we like going to order some cake for someone~ then wtF! it cost

BND200+ OKAY! SIAO AH? why not go rob bank better?! okay i know lah.. i belive it's some

kind of very hard work, and it's big.. and have a really wonderful designs, but it's too

unreasonable la the price! at least cheaper lah please! somemore far from our place again, we

have to like buy car fuel with full tank go up and collect leh! lao ehs! =_= well that cake is for

two person lahs, but then.. yeahh! =__= i'm speechless! hahaha! just too over lah the price.! zz!

kisiao that baker! aiyoo.. but.. alamak! i don't know! hahaha! maybe just.. forget it, and just go

order from mum bakery? haha! but that freaking cake is freaking awesome lah! just that it's

also freaking "CHEAP!" zzz! ehh~ don't know what else to say, MAYBE continue tonight :D

ciao ciao =))

=D

2009-08-24T07:37:00.000-07:00

aherms! guess who's this!? sibei cute loh okayy! hahaha! chubby! make me wanna pinch him so

much ahh! hahaha! but too bad, he don't look like that anymore lahs, now become very leng

zai jor luu! hahaha! can be every girl's dream guy.. =)) whoever will be his, is one lucky girl lohs

(: he's even cuter when he was a baby! hahaha! hmm hmm~~ you guys must be wondering

who is he =P but i not going to let you all know.. make u all xing yang yang =D heheh! i off

blog luhh, see when i update again ^w^

ALASTAIR CHEW!

2009-08-24T07:18:00.000-07:00

spootid Alastair! this is for youu! RAWRRRS YOUUU! you still owe me something since very

very long ago lohh! i still remember okayy! but you say you've forget about it already! chey! i

don't belive lah! you owe me ice cream okay! i don't care~! u JAHAT! BADDIE! MEANIE!

RAWRS UR JAHAT-NESS!

EH SUMORE PICS FORGOT TO POST! =.=

2009-08-24T06:17:00.000-07:00

AHERMS!* me and laopo! hahaha!

=) Champion of the year.. haha!

spot his sexy body!? :D haha!

two tall guys..

Foo Gwen Tong..

Mr.Eh[Tong!] LooGayGay[ZhiHunG!] ZyC[Chen] & [StoneR]JiaYih

Hung :D

Hao! :D

DING DONG!* PICTURES UP! =D

2009-08-24T03:59:00.000-07:00

Ming.

GUESS WHO'S THIS TWO?! ;O

whooops ! it's the 88! actually someone that time sit till very sexy! but missed the chance lah, then just take this niaa.. i know darling sure know who de right darling mann =P

okay ready! =D standing ones : Fred, Nick[smile till like so happy, haha!], Chen, Soon[very steam guy =__=], Rory, down is XiaoZhu, Jeff Di, Richardson, Stoner JiaYih & Alex.. =)

match ends le, then Fred's dad wants ta take pic, but all not ready yet..

KamSan, Ming, Shiong the blur one idk who and Tong.. warming up~

88! Kam San, Richard, Ah Chai & idk who, others on bench.. warming up nia

getting ready for the match!

Chen , Nick & Alex

Hao & Jeff, picture dark cause when take half way the lights went off.. haha!

Hao & PohLi

ZhiHunG =D

Chen again =D

KahLoon =]

Tong again =D

Stoner JiaYih =D

Qiqi aka Joshua =]

Hao =D

Hung =]

Awii =]

Tong =D

Chen =D

FINALLY!

2009-08-24T03:21:00.000-07:00

wooot! i finally have the time to sit down on my bed and blog le!! those times really got no time

to do so lohs! friends overnight at my place, then sometimes using my laptop, then also can say

most of the time outside, then when reach home want blog but very tired already.. so just go

on msn chat awhile then go sleep already.. haha.. okayy! imma gonna blog about that day de

final loh! omg loh so long already now only i post.. not fresh already, but it's okay lah, since

i still haven't blog anything about it so still consider FRESH! AHAHAH! SKSwood won and get

champion for the u16 though :D woot woot! hahaha! nothing much to blog about that day lohs,

but really super lucky that didn't rain that day! but after the match.. rain so heavy!!! i tink..

anyhow say, forgot already.. .___. taken alot of pictures also la, post later. now skip another

topic, okay i know lah, blog half way then skip topic, so lame.. then that day lehs.. when ar?

uh.. ohh! it's the u18 one.. 88 vs AII ! but ofcourse 88 win lahs =__= so strong.. deng.. 88 got

Tong, Shiong, Ming them.. AII got fred, Chen Nick them.. lalas~ but actually can win one loh!

but Chen just accidentally banged on Harvey then he fell and twisted his knee! waahhs, now

swollen like what lohs. can't walk properly.. and sumore they're good friends since idk when,

and he felt really guilty over it, so he no heart to continue playing.. haiss.. accidents do happens,

but never thought it would happen on that day mahs, now both harvey's leg injured lohs, his

right leg haven't recover de but now kena left one again.. really gg.com @___@ hope his

leg recover soon lohs, now don't know need wait till when then can see him on court again..

haiss.. then this shiong leh, so dam fast and chun lohs! waliew.. hardly will miss lahs..! aiyoo..

then when it happens, everyone is like so malas already lohs, i also lazy to say and all lahs..

i know how Chen feels, i know friends, but.. because of this, you made the whole team lose lehs..

hais.. aiyo.. i don't have the right to say him lohs, if i were him, i thnk i would feel this way too

lahs -___- stupidd! haiss.. but really.. )= sayang nohhs.. can win de, but aihhs..~ it's okay bahs..

past already.. tomorrow AII going to vs JOKERS leyy! woow! i think sure win =X! okay i'm so

bad! but.. yeahs, both team my friends lahhs! but still i'm supporting AII de lohs, haha..! i got

their jersey also nehs! so sart! purple black sumore! i choose de weh the colours, and they agreed

also lahs! haha! PURPLEE! s2 sweet! colour! hehehe! to me lahs.. LooL! no.13.. keke! Chen also

no.13 loh.. haha! but my free throw chun-er than him.. AHHH JOKINGG! LOL! but not sure

whether Chen and Nick is coming down tomorrow anot lohs.. )= haiss~ hope they coming down

lahs~ haha! Nick is really random and funny loh! hahaha! he was so high that day, but he played

well that day too.. hehe! and didn't wear his pants =___= he told other people that his pants are

still wet, so never wear it.. but i still go and ask him why eventhough they already tell me, i ask

him ' NICK! why you never wear your pants onee!? ' he ans ' still wet.. heh! no la. actually.. is

too short so i don't want to wear it.. ' then i'm like where got short ohh! haha! but maybe to him

lah! so he never wear it.. haha! but he wear his black pants nohs, longer.. and noone noticed

that his pants is different lohs, so geng also.. hahaa! it looks a little bit similar lahhs.. but still

got difference lah! but nobody noticed i reckon? cause if they noticed it, we might get one

technical foul already lohs.. so yehh.. haha! this coming saturday!! DI'S 18TH BIRTHDAY!

WOOT WOOOT! LOOKING FORWARD TO THAT DAY LAH! CANNOT WAIT! and that day

also SEMI-FINAL LEY! WOOOTT! then next day final jor! haha! he going to celebrate in

Sutera Hotel lohs.. don't know how many people he's inviting lohs, but yeah.. got invite dao

Chen, Nick, Tong them lah.. but they start their exam on 29th! so suay and so zhun also that

day! spootidd! =___= Chen maybe can make it lahs, and hong, and ming definately can loh!

but Tong, he got take Bio, so he needs to see how it goes first.. )= but hope they're all coming

down lahhs! hehehe.. without them like won't be that fun nohs.. sumore, next day final mahs..

so can stay over lahh! eeeyer! haha! and my bestie is coming down also lohs! whees! :D so long

no see him jor! and his car fixed already! so he can come down! hehehe! blablabla~~ hopefully

they can MAKE IT LAH! T__________T then imma gonna stay over that night too.. hehe!

but if it's too crowded, then i might go home lah.. see how it goess lahh! ahaha! bahh i post

the pictures noww :D

boredom kills me -.-

2009-08-24T01:01:00.000-07:00

LAST PERSON YOU
> 1 You hang out with?
> Di, Pohli, Tong, Ming, Shiong, Kam San, Ah Chai, Denis, Hao, Jiayih & Fred
>
> 2 Who was the last person you texted?
> PohLi
>
> 3 Last person you were in a car with?
> Rose.
>
> 4 Last person you went to the movies ?
> eh i don't remember worhs, so long nv go for movie already
>
> 5 Last person you went to the mall with?
> i don't quite remember also =S
>
> 6 Last Person you talked on the phone with?
> i also don't remember =_=
>
> 7 You messaged/commented?
> Pohli
>
> 8 Who are you talking to now?
> Noone atm.
>
> T/F: Only answer with True or False.
> Q: Kissed someone on your top friends?
> - True
>
> Q: Been searched by Cops?
> False.
>
> Q: Been suspended from school?
> False.
>
> Q: Sat on a ROOFtop?
> False.
>
> Q: Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on?
> True.
>
> Q: Broken a bone?
> False.
>
> Q: Have shaved your head?
> False.
>
> Q: Had/have a gym membership?
> True.
>
> Q: Shot a gun?
> False.
>
> Q: Donated Blood?
> False.
>
> _____________ ______________ _
> WOULD YOU RATHER :
> 1 Eat or drink?
> BOth.

> 2 Be serious or be funny?
> Depends.

> 3 Go to the beach or mountains?
> Beach .

> 4 Die in a fire or die getting shot??
> Shot.

> ______________________________
> ANSWER TRUTHFULLY :
> 1 Sun or moon?
> - Moon .

> 2 Winter or fall?
> Winter.

> 3 Left or right?
> Both

> 4 Black and white or colored?
> All .

> 5 Do you want to get married?
> Yes.

> ________________________
> IN THE LAST WEEK HAVE YOU :
> 1. Kissed someone?
> Yes.
>
> 2. Been hugged by someone?
> Yes.
>
> 3. Been poked by someone?
> Yes.
>
> 4. Cried?
> Yes.
>
> 5. Gotten in a fight?
> No.
>
> 6. Told someone they loved you?
> No.

spootid freaking internet explorer! o0o

2009-08-20T08:41:00.000-07:00

FUCK LA! TYPE SO MUCH NOW ALL GONE.. MALAS TYPE LIAO -.- NEXT TIME THEN POST.. ZZZ! eh nvm lahh.. next time update.. i these days very malas and tired.. wait i got time sin then blog.. bahhs! ciaoo!

i thought i could but i couldn't

2009-08-17T11:35:00.000-07:00

i thought it was easy but it's not..

i thought you will be the one and my last but not..

i thought i could forget about you and let go but not..

i thought i'm the one but i'm not..

i thought everything will be fine but not..

sighs.. i thought it wrongg.. )'=

i guess i will never found any guy like you anymore..

even if i found, you are still the one and only..

they can never replace you in my heart..

no matter what, even over.. you still have a special place in my heart..

and it will never be replace..

they say i'm wasting so much time on you..

but it's never to me..

they say it's not worth to spend so much time waiting for you

and so much money on you..

but it's worth it to me..

they say i can find a better guy, even better than you..

but to me you're the best..

you're the greatest love of my life..

you have moved on.. but have i?

somehow, i still need you.. sometimes i pray for you to come back..

sometimes i think it's just a waste of time..

hoping and wishing on something that will never happen,

so helpless and useless.. i might look stronger now on the outside..

it's because i keep escaping from thinking about it..

but i'm never strong.. i'm fucking emo when i'm alone..

i starts to cry alone when the memories flashed back..

yeahs..memories are history..but there're wouldn't be our history if we did not create it..

it's really sweet to have you by my side, but now that you're gone..

i always say that i've moved on, and i've think about it really carefully..

but i still fail.. i've tried so hard to climb up high to the mountain,

but i still fell in the end.. and injured.. and it bleeds.. not my body..

but my heart.. being loved by you.. is my most happiest moment ever..

if ever, will you try to love me once again?

y__y silly enough ey? stubborn minded? hard headed? that makes me..

i can't even help myself.. how can others? sighhs..

here it is! =P

2009-08-17T09:52:00.000-07:00

stupid flooding..! =__=

flood all over the townnn! flood flood flood!

Chen, seems like he's emo-ing over something.. =S

and it's gets heavier and heavier, so the game postponed!

gather together so woulnd't feel too cold..

that's when the rain gets heavier and it's really freezing..

PohLi

DearBoys vs BLitz

this is what i call stone =P

and it starts to rain!

my house front door.. boredd..

My Mum and Feizai.. Lols.

Ming, was calling pohli and ask her faster come! Lool!

no.10!

someone sprayed something and it doesn't smells good..

ZhiHung

just being random..

sexy ehs? his handdd..hahaha!

all concentratin on the movie..

Di driving..

My pinky crocs! Chen's using. haha!

Chen with his silly face =D

spot any sexy leg? =P

look at how crazy they can be..

WeiMing

eChen enjoyng his nasi katok =D

beloved mei <3>

weiming's like eee what's that? haha!

Tong & WeiMing

ZhiHung & eChen

Mei and Jeff di.. hahas.. silly couples =)

air bandung.. my drink =)

nice? =P

saturday night..

2009-08-17T08:56:00.000-07:00

few days never been blogging le, cause internet explorer like something wrong with it.. so

stupid -.- that day is actually the semi-final for the u-16 lohs, went up to bsb though, then tong

echen and zhihung follow me down cause they got no transport to come down, they overnight at

my place too though, but slept in my bro's room lahh.. lool.. they won that day for the semi final..

aiya they never lose lah -.- win all the way.. macam not challenging also.. haha.. all those like

noob noob one, tong was sick on that day, poor him.. drank so much water hen go in toilet for

like every moment again.. hahas.. after the match they went back to my place and shower..

after shower then wait for jeff di them to come lohs.. then went gerai for supper.. actualy wanted

to finish watch the next match de, then tong cannot tahan already keep wan go back and bathe,

he really wasn't feeling good.. but he's so different from other peoples lei, for people who're

sick will be like dying on bed, cannot move, feeling weak and tired but him, he's like so hyper

and can eat so much, can never tell that he's sick lohhs.. sumore he eat sooo much again, hao

also.. nasi katok, 3 burgers then idk what else. lols! then echen like ate 2 plates of nasi katok

and 1 bowl of kolo lao shu fen.. pohli, mei and i, just ate some fried noodle lohs, and the kolo

wantan.. after that just go home then about 2 like that go out moinam to eat again leh them --"

especially this tong arhs.. ordered kolo lau shu fen again... @@ after eating went to industrial

area there lohs, actually wanna meet up with awii them, then hang out there, who knows the

police car went there roaming around, so stupid =___= so never jadi.. then go home loh since

there's nothing to do anymore.. then we talked about some ghost stories.. hao didn't came back

early, cause he went to like race fast with awii first, then only come back home lohs, then when

he reached my place, he keep mc me, ask me open door, and when i go open, he come in le, tell

me that he got something to say.. i'm like what issit? why like so serious =S and he ask where's

everyone? all sleep already!? i said haven't lohs, all inside my brother's room, talking and

crapping.. playing also -.- lol.. then when he come in room, i also follow in, see what he gonna

say.. then he say.. the time when they like driving fast, both of them saw one car coming out

from the junction, erm it's not really far away from them lahs, like yeahs, saw the two brake

lights at the back from the car.. so they slowed down, by the time hao look at his car meter

to check how fast he drove, then the car disappear, like not even one seconds lohhs! and awii

was like, staring at the car and it disappear infront of him, like wtf.. O_O! spooky ehh -.- after

that everyone's like.. aiya maybe you think too much.. aiya maybe the car just stop somewhere

else and off engine liao so no more lights.. aiyaaa maybe just turn to some other junction lahs..

then i say maybe it go further so canot see lights liao -.- then he say it's impossible lohs, cause

they saw it disappear infront of them -.- then after that, like.. everyone scare.. hahaa.. the time

before we went moi nam for supper also got say abit de.. then their slipper infront ma.. my front

living room de lights off liao de, but zhihung's and tong's slipper in front, want go take, so they

went lah to take.. suddenly they both like running so fast and rush to us -.- i thought what

happen again, like really fast eh -.- hahaha! funny lohhs.. two silly guys.. haha! i got take pic

of them lah, playing inside room -.- so funny, ahaha! slept about 4ish to 5 am lidat lohs, then

early morning, weiming go knocked on my door -.- SOO NOISY LAH! knock so loud again! just

to take his phone.. cause his phone inside my room charging lols.. then say what time ohh still

sleep! wake up laa! then i don't care i go back sleep on my bed.. lol.. then they so noisy.. all wake

up already.. walao sleep so late wake so early..! one of my stupid dog outside barking again -.-

stupiddd! then i buay tahan liao, wake up and look at the time, i'm like wtff lohh! still so earlyy!!

zzzzZzz! this hao and ming both like cats and dog de, funny, eversince weiming get inside the

car keep spark till my house ehh -.- then weiming call him dog one ma, when my dog outside

barking, and they were still sleeping, he like wke up and say.. hao can you stop barking? -.- zzz!

early morning!!! LOL! then jeff di kena raped by tong, zhi hung and hao also.. haha! stupid lor,

tht tong sick still can play till so sot.. haha! tong like pressing jeff and don't let him move, then

zhihung go press his leg, and hao to pluck off his leg hairs.. zzz! pain seh, not only one time leh

like few times, 2 times also same leg, same spot.. hahaha! i think dao also wanna laugh ar -.-

then 3rd time is another leg.. zzz...! like play till nothing to play already.. haha! then since all

wake already, all go shower lohs, then i went my mother's room shower.. after showering went

out for breakfast, it's actually our breakfast and lunch lahh.. haha! wake early but late out.. haha

then after eating go nanyang lohs, i going there buy something mahs, hair clip and also

bought this earing.. haha.. this earing like very cool loh! at first thought that's the last one..

tong also want mahs, then aiyo since last, then nvm loh, give him take nohs, then he saw got

somemore down there, then i go see, yahor, same de, haha! then i also buy, so we both bought

the same earing, ahhaa.. it's like quite exp? haha, $11.50 lei.. dengg.. but nvm lahs, it's cool

though, haha! after that fred msged me, and asked where are we and want to come find us ma..

and he haven't eat, but it's too late we ate already, so i asked him what he want to eat i'll just

buy for him loh, then eat at my place later, cause we bought one movie also, some dirty comedy..

then went back home to watch movie lohs, but hao and tong went to sleep, sleep then come out

awhile then go back sleep again.. but after awhile hao went back home, his dad come bring him..

and he wasn't feeling quite well also, keep stomache.. maybe eat too much.. hahaha! 3 burgers

and nasi katok and i don't know what else.. stomach won't feel weird also fake lah.. haha! at night

they final again.. went to the bball court about 5 ish but reach there about 6ish loh, was late a

little bit cause of waiting pohli lahhs, ahahha! then when she's ready all like complain her! haha!

all inside car waiting, that day evening was a bad day lohhs, keep rain, then thought it would

just rain awhile then stop, but who knows never stop, it gets even heavier instead -.- zzz.! and

so the final match got postponed.. to tomorrow! tuesday! omgosh canot wait to watch ley.. haha!

that night heavy rain, dam cold loh! wind so strong! all like freeze to death, then all of us gather

together to keep us warm, with the body heat.. then i cannot tahan already, really super cold,

then i ask all of them like eh why not we all go in the small hut der lahhs.. more people there,

then the rain won't kena us again.. so we all went.. and sit there.. then when the rain gets lighter

their friends come and bring them back to bandar lohs, kelian this tong.. sick already still kena

rain, then when they go le, me and jeff di, and pohli and lung went to eat lohs, like too hungry..

then the road flood again -.- lucky i never wear shoe.. haha! but jeff di wear shoe loh, it's like

eww! so disgusting loh! like stepped on the drain water.. eww =___= zz! but bo pien lah, at

di walked bare food again.. haha -.- like lako.. but also no choice maa.. haha! after that we all just

go back home loh, haha! hmmm.. pictures will be post above there.. hehe.. =) looking forward to

tomorrow's match! hehehe! can't wait! =X

some pictures? :D

2009-08-13T08:51:00.000-07:00

the picture that was taken on the opening ceremony.. they won though =D
standings: JY, Rory, Hao, Qiqi a.k.a Joshua, Awii a.k.a Alfred
sitting: Loon, ZhiHung, Hung, MR.EH!!! a.k.a Tong, and eChen a.K.a ZYC! haha!

JY: hehehehe!

steady enough? =P everybody he's the JY.. jy? jiayou? JIAYIH lahs! =P

=D some food we ordered just now, it's actually alottt! but i'm so hungry and lazy so never take the other foods =p

Zuki

2009-08-13T08:26:00.000-07:00

just came back from yumcha-ing.. haha.. went arcade with JY, di, hao and pohli.. nothing much

lahs, just blog it out for fun, since i've got nothing to do and feeling a little bit bored.. went

excapade earlier like about 6.30pm with pohli for dinner lohs, then eat till like dam full lohs, but

she's not even full yet ley, this's the first tme happen on her, haha.. i wonder why yeah, hahaha!

after dinner, went roaming around in town, then go see if got any nice movies, but so far, no lohs.

dam sien ley.. but she bought one hk series and taiwan series, and i got none.. boreddd! not my

tastee! hahaa, then after that went seria, watch ball, so bored lahhs.. then met ah yen, she was

with her boy lohs, then after that got talk abit.. and :D she say how come i become fairer!? i dam

happy sia! i become fairer weh! but face not really.. aihhs, tht's quite sad though! haaha! but

still okayy lahhh, not like super dark like those indians mahhs! hahaha! and my lens been

wearing for the whole day until now haven take them out leyy.. eyes feeling so dry lohs! gotta

take it out soon after i blog =)) i took some pictures of JY just now.. haha! it's so funny, cause

i'm like pretending i was showing pohli some pictures in my phone or messages or whatever

shits.. then JY is like blur and don't know about it, but actually was like taking picture of him,

and there's some action of him, sibei funny loh! haha! i'll post the pictures later on =D i now go

bathe first *grin!*

i hate love )'=

2009-08-11T09:47:00.000-07:00

i hate the mornings, cause i know what they bring.. you're leaving, and it sounds so selfish.

but i can't help but think, that if you knew how much i needed you you'd stay.. i hate goodbyes,

i hate these tears in my eyes.. i hate myself for the way i feel about you.. i've had enough.

i'm sick of wishing that he will be around me everyday and night.. it's way too much. i hate it

when i miss you.. cause it reminds me that you're so far apart from me and you don't belong

to me no more.. it drives me crazy cause i need you with me.. i don't want to feel this alone..

everytime when you walked out of my heart, i can't help it.. i start missing you.. wish i didn't

need you this much.. but i love how it feels when we're in love..

Hotttt Sunny Dayy

2009-08-10T07:44:00.000-07:00

today early morning, deng so hot lahhs .___. so hazey sumore goshh! make me don't feel so

well.. =.= aihhs.. don't know why weather so hot, and didn't even rain! only rain a little while

that day niahs, sumore not so big also de.. not enough lohhs.. haiss.. then at work, went to the

new office, still under renovation la anyways, but going to move there within this month, and

lol! so small loh! it's even smaller than our office! zzz! then i need to be there to watch those

workers do things and count the stocks also.. make sure they didn't make any mistakes.. then

met this guy Michael.. know who he is quite long already.. haha.. but only starting to talk today..

not bad looking though.. *eyebrows* ahhas =)) when i reached the place, he just said hi to me

and yeahs, after that didn't talk much.. and half way working, cause i was marking those boxes,

and counting some of the stocks with other workers, he suddenly come talk to me lohs, like

asking.. ' this one count already mahhh? sure ohh? really no wrong ohhs? ' with the smiling

face.. aaahah.. i shocked also lahs, cause he doesn't look friendly lah when i first saw him..

look abit lan c lan c type one.. but who knows hahas..! then also he help abit also lohs for the

workerrs, to carry the stuffs to the other unit.. supose to use trolley push nia one, then he say..

nvm lahs just put in my car.. cause he's driving the company pick up car.. he say if not, like

that push, till tomorrow also haven't finish lol.. then yeahhs alot more lahhs.. that was in the

morning lahhs.. then afternooon, actually already done de, but me and one of my colleage went

to the factory to get something also mahs, then drop by the new office to see how is it going lohs,

and he was there too, he's shocked that i came back.. haha.. like asking ' ei? how come you're

here one? ' then i never answer just smile.. and said hi to him lol, then he ask again.. ' the stuffs

already finish done right? (: ' i said yeahhs, ahaha, then go see inside the new office, then left..

not much things bahhs, afterall, just wanna say that, i just met a new friend and that's him LOL.

and he's my uncle's god son rofls! hmmm, nothing much to post thoughh.. can't think of

anything to say alsoo.. hope tomorrow will be a better day bahhs =))