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Her name is Heidi..♥
Her Birthday is on Jan17th.. ♥
She's a Capricorn Girl.. ♥
Loves Sleeping & Shopping ♥
Lame at times :D
Loves Her Friends alot ♥
Has One Fragile Heart & she HATES it!
Really Want To Earn Alot Of Money..
& Someone to Love, Care & Dote Her..

Her Sadness:

I Wish I Had The Courage To Tell You Exactly How Much I Miss You )':

I'm Willing to Wait foryou

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Baby & i .

i love this picture alot. we both look so happy inside. but, we can never judge a picture by just looking at it. behind every picture, there are alot of stories behind. happy ones, sad ones.. nobody knows. like this picture, it's just a picture. but am i happy? do you guys think i am? :) to be frank, my unhappiness is more than happiness. yes i am happy that i could meet him, since we're having a distance r/s. our last meeting was dec 29. after so long, can only meet him. the last time we met, relationship between me and him are just close friends. this time, we meet as couples. before going to singapore, i was really excited, we've been together for almost half year. quite sometimes ei? i won't feel nervous somehow.. but just really excited. i get so so happy when i see him.. that day was cool.. but when it comes to a little bit late at night, i somehow felt that.. something's not right, a sudden felt from him, treating me a little cold.. i know i'm the kind of girl who thinks so much. and yeah, so much negative thoughts in me. but, if he never give me this feeling, i wouldn't have this kinda thoughts right? times when i was in singapore, he stayed with me, accompanied me through the night. the first night, he was so nice, so caring, sweet and yeahs, we hugged each other to sleep. the next day.. somehow, just felt that, sigh i don't know.. times when i was in singapore, and before i went, it's so different. he was so effing sweet in those previous msgs before we meet, but after we met, his actions are just so different from the usual msgs. why? when i questioned him, he just said nothing happened, and it's im the one that thinks alot. but i don't think he treats his ex this way..? i think they're very sweet before.. sigh, speaking about his ex, i really break down alot. i've got no confidence in myself at all. do you know, how pretty his ex is? close to perfect ei? what about me? i'm nothing.. no looks, fat. and all, people says appearance aren't everything, he said he doesn't mind. but which guy wouldn't right? which guy don't want their own gf to be pretty right? ofcourse they wanna bring a pretty girl out and show off to everyone and let the whole world knows, that he has a pretty girlfriend. sigh.. well cut that crap and back to the topic, i never been happy after i came back from singapore. everything just seems to be so different compared to before. the day i left from his side, was my most regretful day. i shouldn't have listen to him, and just go in the departure hall.. i should've stay and accompany him till the very last call for boarding. what am i thinking back then? why would i listen to him? the moment when he turn and walk away.. do you know how much it hurts to watch someone you love walking away slowly from you..? i just couldn't bear, so i just turn away and go in.. the moment when i stepped into the departure hall, i begin to miss him so much, and that feeling kills me so much! and when i'm inside the airplane, i was crying so badly for the entire journey. the feelings HURT SO BAD, i could even die! i never been happy since the day i'm back. sigh.. i viber-ed him yesterday night, the feeling was so different. he said it's been quite so long tht he haven't call me. then i said yeah, don't he feel abit weird? he answered, abit. but i said, it's not just abit.. it was just a short conversation. after we hung up the phone, he texted me, he said he knows that i'm unhappy and he apologized. i began to cry after i read that msg.. then i start shooting everything out, i tell him whatever i wanna say and tell him how am i feeling, and what had happened to us.. he said nothing, and he will never hide anything from me.. sigh.. after that, all his msgs and everything gone back normal.. but still, feeling weird somehow.. )'= i really miss him so much.. miss laying next to him.. watching him from beside, laying on his chest.. hugg him, kiss him, hold his hands.. )'x by just thinking back, what have we done, where we went to before.. it just hurt so bad.. )=
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oh well, i quitted alot of things that i do everyday! i deactivated my facebook :/ quitted msn? & also maple.. kinda sad.. but i really don't know what i do that for? maybe there's too much things on my mind, then i really need to calm myself down, so quit everything all in once at the mo.. i might be back? when i'm feeling better.. :) so lifeless of me.. TV is not my thang.. :/ sleep couldn't be sleeping forever also what.. sms, will but.. noone to sms with? my phone's dead anyways.. xi guan jiu hao ba? but today.. it's not really dead.. :)) i'm happy to see his name pop out of my phone screen.. kinda surprised me? cause i thought he wouldn't contact me in anyway anymore :/ oh yeah! i never quit skype! LOL~! anyone who knows me can add me in skype! ^^ can always chat there or call me through skype if i never afk :D x3heidi(add!) no mic also nvm, can chat inside de =)) just that you needa download skype nia.. :D this is how my life is at the moment.. :/ how to contact me? hmmm.. through my blog chatbox? and sms or call me? or skype :D back to top?

i miss you.. T___T so dam much.. hurts so bad too T__T back to top?

why is my title my blog's add? because i really anti-reality.. this will be one short post, cause for one sentence, it represents everything i wanna say in my heart and things that i'm thinking in my mind.. 每个人是现实的.. so.. what i'm gonna say is.. Face The Reality.. back to top?

ahem, he's CH.. :D look what is he doing? he told me that sponge he's using to "act cleaning the floor" is the sponge that used to put flowers de.. Lol.. then i ask him where did he put the flowers after that, he said he threw it away.. -___- and yes.. that was my expression when he told me that.. LOL


anyways, why is he doing all those cleaning stuffs ey? haha, well, he told me he's doing all these for the charity at the old folks home.. and yeahs, he sweep the floor till kena MJ possessed LOL.. pose with that broom sumore.. f3


look so hardworking in this pic, but is he really that hardworking? :P horhorhor, or acting only ohh? :P

Sharon & I .. we went panaga swimm on like erm, friday.. (: after that we went yumcha.. :D


some maple ss? :D i love my cs outfit, so dam round and cute ey! :D


Somehow, the guy on my left side de, reminds me of :)


Dar<3 hahaha!


This picture is very LOL!


Jeff & i ..

Ming =)


=D !


HorHor! who's this chubby? :P cute hor? :D he's CH! :P

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Edmund, me and Ming . :) edmund went back to canada already ): sad, kinda miss him though, eventhough we don't hang out much, but it's so nice to meet him.. know him through jeff :) anyways, it's really nice to have him as a friend, he's dam hilarious, super blur guy :P


Nuer & i, we went panaga swim that day, along with michelle, haha! we're supposed to go jogging but we went swimming instead due to the bad weather :)


i stuff Pulut in the luggage, lol =x i want him ta sleep but he's so naughty keep wanna come out -.-


aww his innocent looking face ):


Pulut: Jiee, please let me out T_T


He's scolding me that time lol f3


Ke ai & pulut :D x3


Adrian & Ryan , went pool that time, after that we went for a movie, hehehe! new moon or eclipse i forgot! whatever! :D


Jon, Me & Kor :D after yumcha, then went my place hang out awhile. (:


Wenkwang! x3 he's my love love love ! so cute ! but now he grow up le , quite sometimes since i last saw him D:


Long ago de pic, May & i (: was at fred's house :D during CNY


Edmund & I :D


I love this picture so much, it was taken at Qlap GwaHo, Mann Darling, Auntiepig & I :D love them both to the max! ^^


Hehe! Kor & I :D back to top?

i don't know what to do anymore..



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